Trusting God...

...is such a difficult thing to do. The easiest course of action is to run to anxiety, as if somehow I can make sense of the situation. But really, what is anxiety other than pride...somehow I think I can figure out the situation better than God so I worry about what answers I will find? No. Trust is humility. It is saying, "Lord, you know better than I, so I choose to trust you." Does this mean that we stop searching for answers? Certainly not. God has given us discernment and wisdom so we might figure out the best course of action...but not in our own power. This searching for answers must be found in the trust that God will provide the solution. Anxiety stems from thinking that if we don't find the answer on our own, the situation will not be resolved and all will fail. Trust stems from knowing that in our search for an answer, God will reveal it to us.

God, help me put my trust in you.

MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED!!!!

I'm down in La for my brother's wedding [for those of you thinking...she doesn't have a brother...i know i know, but Mike's been my big brother for over 5 years, so it counts ;P] He is marrying Heidi, one of the most amazing young women I know. She just graduated from Azusa Pacific and is now moving up to NorCal [after the honeymoon of course]. The wedding is down in Rancho Cucamonga [sp?] at this place with a great outdoor setting, lots of trees, flowers, grass, and SHADE [it is LA after all]! Next to the wedding there is a hall for the reception made of dark wood, and cast iron railings...really pretty.

My sister is gonna be one of the bridesmaids, she's been getting ready ALL day. haha...i never knew it was possible to that much make-up on ;) Oh well, I guess I'm not really into that so much [the hours of getting ready that is, being a bridesmaid is cool], but she's enjoying it. So that is good. She looks gorgeous in her little black dress.

My dad is doing the ceremony, i am simply attending. Which means I get to have fun today! whoohoo!!

And then i'll be back down here in 7 days to move in to Biola. haha...it's almost torture being this close and not getting to step on campus/see the local kids down here. :/

Oh well, 7 more days...7 more days...

New Name

I also need to come up with a better name for the film than "Kailye"...any thoughts?? I'm thinking something short, but very symbolic. Lemme know if you've got any suggestions. thanks!

Final Cut on Kailye

Kaylie from ordinaeriegirl on Vimeo.

[only thing we still need to fix is the cafeteria scene, the two parts are switched. oops.]

After this, we are going to try and enter this into a few film festivals so please be praying that goes well/tell me what you think of it before we enter it.

Also, Evangeline and I are planning on getting it scored, but i'm starting to like the music we have. So any thoughts on the music part would be greatly appreciated!!!!

Suits, Dresses, and Machine Guns

The place was Sarah Grunder's house.
The time was 8 pm.
The male subjects arrived in full suits without warning.
Guns were supplied.
Female subjects dressed approprately.
A shooting ensued.
The following is the direct result of the shoot.

I think I forgot to mention...

...that I ended up getting hired. At this closeout retail store called Tuesday Morning. I guess the store started up years ago as a garage sale that the owner had every Tuesday Morning, and then it eventually turned into a national chain. Pretty cool. Mostly I clean, and organize, and clean some more. But it's a job and i get paid. Plus, everyone there is really, really nice! So it's a low stress job, I get through my shift fast, and i'm really starting to like being there :)

Prayer Request

Hey you all,

So I'm pretty sure I told most of you this already, but my mom has been diagnosed with Breast Cancer this past week. Apparently it is the most aggressive type you can have, so it's pretty intense. She'll be having a double mastectomy in a few weeks and then start into six months of chemo afterwards. This is going to be a really tough journey for her and she's already exhausted from being very ill with an unknown fever and such for the past eight months. So if you all could please be praying I'd really appreciate it a lot. If you are interested in what is going on, I made her a blog so she can keep in touch with people and let them know what's going on. The URL is leslynmusch.blogspot.com Thanks so much for your prayers.

And while on this subject, if you are praying please also lift up my friend's (Brian) dad (Mr. Hinds) who is currently battling brain cancer, among other things. There have been a lot of complications lately, fortunately he is now recovering, but divine healing for this cancer would be amazing!

I pray to one day be able to write about healing for both my mom and Brian's dad! God knows what He is doing and He'll work this all out. Praise Him!