Trusting God...

...is such a difficult thing to do. The easiest course of action is to run to anxiety, as if somehow I can make sense of the situation. But really, what is anxiety other than pride...somehow I think I can figure out the situation better than God so I worry about what answers I will find? No. Trust is humility. It is saying, "Lord, you know better than I, so I choose to trust you." Does this mean that we stop searching for answers? Certainly not. God has given us discernment and wisdom so we might figure out the best course of action...but not in our own power. This searching for answers must be found in the trust that God will provide the solution. Anxiety stems from thinking that if we don't find the answer on our own, the situation will not be resolved and all will fail. Trust stems from knowing that in our search for an answer, God will reveal it to us.

God, help me put my trust in you.

MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED!!!!

I'm down in La for my brother's wedding [for those of you thinking...she doesn't have a brother...i know i know, but Mike's been my big brother for over 5 years, so it counts ;P] He is marrying Heidi, one of the most amazing young women I know. She just graduated from Azusa Pacific and is now moving up to NorCal [after the honeymoon of course]. The wedding is down in Rancho Cucamonga [sp?] at this place with a great outdoor setting, lots of trees, flowers, grass, and SHADE [it is LA after all]! Next to the wedding there is a hall for the reception made of dark wood, and cast iron railings...really pretty.

My sister is gonna be one of the bridesmaids, she's been getting ready ALL day. haha...i never knew it was possible to that much make-up on ;) Oh well, I guess I'm not really into that so much [the hours of getting ready that is, being a bridesmaid is cool], but she's enjoying it. So that is good. She looks gorgeous in her little black dress.

My dad is doing the ceremony, i am simply attending. Which means I get to have fun today! whoohoo!!

And then i'll be back down here in 7 days to move in to Biola. haha...it's almost torture being this close and not getting to step on campus/see the local kids down here. :/

Oh well, 7 more days...7 more days...

New Name

I also need to come up with a better name for the film than "Kailye"...any thoughts?? I'm thinking something short, but very symbolic. Lemme know if you've got any suggestions. thanks!

Final Cut on Kailye

Kaylie from ordinaeriegirl on Vimeo.

[only thing we still need to fix is the cafeteria scene, the two parts are switched. oops.]

After this, we are going to try and enter this into a few film festivals so please be praying that goes well/tell me what you think of it before we enter it.

Also, Evangeline and I are planning on getting it scored, but i'm starting to like the music we have. So any thoughts on the music part would be greatly appreciated!!!!

Suits, Dresses, and Machine Guns

The place was Sarah Grunder's house.
The time was 8 pm.
The male subjects arrived in full suits without warning.
Guns were supplied.
Female subjects dressed approprately.
A shooting ensued.
The following is the direct result of the shoot.

I think I forgot to mention...

...that I ended up getting hired. At this closeout retail store called Tuesday Morning. I guess the store started up years ago as a garage sale that the owner had every Tuesday Morning, and then it eventually turned into a national chain. Pretty cool. Mostly I clean, and organize, and clean some more. But it's a job and i get paid. Plus, everyone there is really, really nice! So it's a low stress job, I get through my shift fast, and i'm really starting to like being there :)

Prayer Request

Hey you all,

So I'm pretty sure I told most of you this already, but my mom has been diagnosed with Breast Cancer this past week. Apparently it is the most aggressive type you can have, so it's pretty intense. She'll be having a double mastectomy in a few weeks and then start into six months of chemo afterwards. This is going to be a really tough journey for her and she's already exhausted from being very ill with an unknown fever and such for the past eight months. So if you all could please be praying I'd really appreciate it a lot. If you are interested in what is going on, I made her a blog so she can keep in touch with people and let them know what's going on. The URL is leslynmusch.blogspot.com Thanks so much for your prayers.

And while on this subject, if you are praying please also lift up my friend's (Brian) dad (Mr. Hinds) who is currently battling brain cancer, among other things. There have been a lot of complications lately, fortunately he is now recovering, but divine healing for this cancer would be amazing!

I pray to one day be able to write about healing for both my mom and Brian's dad! God knows what He is doing and He'll work this all out. Praise Him!

You Know You Live in a Sketchy Part of Town When...

...your parents send you to the grocery store with the warning "Be careful, three people were killed over there a month ago."

Oh dear.

Exciting News!!

The final cut on Kailye is almost done. **major props to Evangeline**

I'm super excited!!!

Squee!!!

(i'll post it as soon as it's done)

I Think I Have Bad Luck

So here is an update on my job hunt. I got hired at a discount retail shop called Tuesday Morning. That's great and non-confusing. I then went in to interview at Crabtree & Evelyn (lotion shop for those of you who don't know) and the lady hired me on the spot! --or so it seemed-- apparently she actually has to get this approved by the regional manager and he's not even sure if he's hiring. So I guess I'm not employed there...even tho I am. I dunno. So i interviewed at Pier 1 too and hopefully one of those will come through. This is starting to remind me strangely of the first time I ever got hired for a job tho...

...Sarah and I had been looking for our first jobs and she convinced me that Starbucks was gonna be the best place to work in the world. So we both dropped off applications and did interviews and we both got hired!!! The lady on the phone was really enthusiastic and gave me all the dress code info [I had to buy like 50 worth of black clothes and shoes] and how the first day of work would go talk, etc. So i'm enthused and so I drive down to the store for my first day of work. Problem. Nobody in the entire store knows I was supposed to come in. So they set me up and make me mop the floor and stuff...they can't really figure out what else to do with me. So then they send me home early and are like, "Well, come back tomorrow. Good job and stuff." That evening the manager calls me.

"Hi is this Karyn?"
"Yes, how are you?"
"I'm fine but I'm calling to work out a mistake. You see we didn't know you were coming in today because I actually didn't mean to hire you. I was supposed to hire a girl named Monica [may I just point out how easy it would be to confuse the two names ;) ]. So you actually aren't hired here."
"Oh. Okay, thanks."

Well.
She hangs up.
And I'm suddenly now unemployed and questioning if this can actually happen.
But I'm too timid to question it.
At least I got a new pair of shoes out of the deal.
:)

A Great and Epic Quest

So I have officially decided to get a summer job. I arrived at this wonderous conclusion after deciding not to work on a feature film this summer and to stay at home. That decided I must now embark on finding reputable employment. My choices seem slim since I can only apply at places hiring for the summer and that seems to be a choice frowned upon by many upstanding businesses. However, my hopes are not to be dashed and resume in hand I shall go forth and become employed. Thus far my choices are:

1) C28 (maybe they'll hire me)

2) a bookstore (any kind will do)

3) a restaurant (seating hostess)

4) anyone who will hire me

I shall update soon on the results of my job hunt. Until then ta ta and happy hunting.

My Film Project this Semester

This is the film that I worked on with Evangeline over this semester. The story deals with a girl who is struggling with body image and eventually finds herself trapped inside a self-made prision. It's all pretty symbolic and the music isn't done, but here it is for now. Hope you like it.

Back Home

So guess the semester has been a long one, because I haven't posted anything on here...for a long time. sorry. I hope you all didn't get too board. Anyways...I finished the play and was convincingly scary, worked on a ton of film projects, registered online as a casting director, and got through my first year of college without dying completely. Overall a good year was had. And now I'm home...and missing LA, but glad to be back. I may be working on a project over this summer but I'll let ya'll know more about that when i get more info tomorrow.

Love to you all and hope that your summer is wonderful
~Karyn (the going to be better blogger)

Pursuits on Performance

"Alack for mercy!"

I am now a member of the cast for Torrey's presentation of "The Tempest". I auditioned last semester and got cast in december and now rehearsal's are fully underway. So from 9-12 every monday, tuesday, and wednesday and am basically in fairy bootcamp. Fairy bootcamp is a very regimented training program meant to turn unassuming college students in creepy, spirits who do the bidding of the sorcerer Prospero. So far, we are basically not used to being in human bodies and use our limbs only in cases of great need. Otherwise, fairies are strange creatures who are half-present in this reality. Sharp head movements and then moments of staring into the black oblivion are normal as are very angular and jerky movements. So basically we spend 3 hours running back and forth in strange manners and jerking our heads around. Eventually the effect should be quite spooky...right now my legs hurt. But it's all for theater and I'm loving it!

Among other things, I am also a co-host on a Biola Radio Show called the Motley Cool. Melissa (my friend down here) started it and is the host joined by Blake, Andrew and myself as her "Motley Cool". We basically talk for an hour each week about current issues and other ideas. Last week was our SUPER show talking about Super Bowl, Super Tuesday, and Super Popular TV shows. This week we are going to talk about Valentine's Day and what the meaning of love is on our society and what it should be. So if you have a free moment on Thursday nights at 9, stop by biolaradio.com and give our show a listen!!

Praying you are all doing well!

Back at Biola

So I am now back at school!

Quick Update: The film shoot went great and i was working 14 hour days and loving it! Mostly I was working with actors and extras and making sure everyone was doing their jobs and the set was running smoothly while the director did his whole directing thing. It was great and tiring, but so worth it. We filmed in the cool historic town that is still the same as it was in the 1890's and in this little cabin 20 mins away down an icy road of death. Yep so pretty awesome. Hopefully i'll get more work like this in the future...until then i'm stoked!

So Kaitlyn and I are now living just the two of us on campus. Sarah moved out so now there is a TON more space in the room. We got a lamp and a couch and some other fun stuff and it really feels homey and peaceful in here. We have such similar styles that everything we put up matches perfectly. it's pretty funny.

So classes start on monday and i still have some work to do before then, but not a lot so i'm mostly catching up with friends and such. It's been great to have a few days to readjust. Missing every one back home a lot, but i think this semester is going to be good.

So tomorrow...

...I'm leaving for a pre-film trailer shoot for an actual film! I'll be the 2nd Assistant Director (AD) and working with mostly the actors and the directors to make sure everything runs smoothly and on time. I'll - hopefully - be updating this as i go since the shoot runs from tuesday to saturday, but if not i'll definitely let you all know how it went soon after i get back. :) If you think of it please be praying for travel safety for the cast and crew and wisdom for me to be able to do my job well, since i'm fairly nervous about it.

Thanks all and hope you are enjoying/have enjoyed your Christmas Break!!!